satisfaction

Sunday, October 24, 2010

想看你，又想躲你。

what the hell is wrong with me.

i hate myself. i hate what does through my mind.

FucKLife

11:45 PM

Sunday, August 22, 2010

how cruel can life get?

8:00 PM

Monday, August 2, 2010

i have always been burying all the nonsense deep deep down at the bottom of my heart.

it made me feel better, made me forgive, forget and look forward.

i have no fucking guts to open up and cry out.

tonight, i realized digging out crap that you have buried, would hurt this much.

looking back, i realized what i have buried, will somehow come back up again,

and throw me down like an endless freefall.

i hope, when i wake up, i will be in a new place.

away from all the crap i have faced, am facing and will be facing.

love, friendship, words, the past, could hurt this much.

2:18 AM

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Broken Strings

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
A lie is worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late too late

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
A lie's worse
I can't like it anymore
When I love you a little less than before

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late [too late]

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
A lie's worse
I can't like it anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Oh and I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

11:32 AM

Saturday, February 6, 2010

At The Brink

whatever i said, i ain't defending ANYONE.

as a friend, i just don't want you to become like this.

i'm just so so so so so sad and disappointed.

i hope you read this and understand.

i hope you could change.

not for me, but for yourself.

9:12 PM

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Holiday

didnt do much during the holidays. busy working as usual. but my off-days were kinda meaningful. i will only post about the days i hv photos.

went to teo-heng cos we were bored.

but we still had fun :D

next.......

look at these pictures. where do u tink i went?

little jellyfishes.

zoom in jeyllyfish.

seahorse i tink. (more like seaweed)

crabs.

this big crab. i forgot his name.

a little shark sleeping. ( its quite obvious where i went right?)

i was at underwater world. =)

cos my frens had some free tickets thingy.

was there with ah yao,

and cheng, hui shan and cheng's fren. (what's his name again?)

we also went to the beach! played volleyball and frisbee..

and SUNTANNED!!!

here's the proof:

its quite obvious i was quite unwilling. haha but in the end, it doesn't matter to me anymore. cos i'm already so black.

me and shans.

me and shanns again..

i dont have much of the photos.

anyway, ran into some schoolmates and played volleyball with them.

it was a crazy day :D

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next, my happiest days.

jerry, ray, jac. u shd know where i was. hahaha.

i went to kedah, sungei petani, in malaysia to visit my aunts.

this is none another than my aunt's car. the car is older than me. 20+ years old.

super retro la!!! but i love being in it :D

anyway, let me introduce the 7 dogs with 3 generations within.

this is ZOEY. the oldest. the mother/grandmother.

and what's more, is she's the smallest among the seven.

she's a poodle terrier.

zoey's 4 children. their father is in KL.

Eevie, Max, Sasha and Eevie.

Lastly, Zoe's grandchildren. Max and Eevie's children.

they had 4 children but 2 were given to my cousin's friend.

this 2 are.....

Beckham

and the youngest but the biggest. Wang Lee Hong.

they're just dogs, but they are super smart. SERIOUSLY. if u wana noe how smart they are, let me know. i'd be more than happy to tell u their nonsense.