How did it come to this

Today was my last paper. It ended at 1130, i was so happy.. And was also excited to go to the chalet that i couldnt go for the first few days, cos i had to study for my exams..

But.. when it was over, u called. Everything started off cool, until i told u i needed to buy something b4 coming. That was when all the shit happened. You started saying stuff that made me so pissed.. What's more, even after i admitted that i wanted to get a present for u, u still fucking WENT ON AND ON! u knew i hated this kinda things.. u definitely knew.. you even spoke about the previous few days, which i have been studying and studying.. yes, i was with them, but we were studying. i have EXAMS man.

Remember danny's birthday ? i couldnt turn up, and u started saying those stuff (which u noe i hate to hear) and i have already explained to u that i had some school stuff to attend to, and u also knew the other reason why i didnt feel like going... I thought and prayed that that was the last time we'd quarrel over this kinda things. But i guess god's playing tricks on me again ?

And, the message u sent me this afternoon. Are those words of anger ? Or are they ur true feeling? Cos it hit me FUCKING HARD. That last line. Am i such a fucker in ur eyes ?

Today is your birthday. I promised that i will bake a cake on our birthdays cos i'm in baking course. Got jing wei to pass it to you, but what are u doing with it ? If u think i dont give a shit about u, throw the fucking cake away.

All i've gotta say is that i treasure our friendship. Me, You and Everyone else.

Happy Birthday.

went to school for lessons and POD exam..
after that.. it was the biggest outing j2 had.. haha.. 18 of us: milly, billy, eunice, wendy, yvonne, ah ming, merilyn, fang ru, joyceline, liting, kuang hui, wei hao, brian, james, junjie, lewis and andy..
went to a japanese buffet at clarke quay.. then went to dohby ghaut for BENJAMIN BUTTONS.. fang ru and joelle didnt come for the movie =( the movie was 3 hours long.. WA.. i slept abit cos i was very tired... until i saw... BRAD PITT, he is BLOODDY HOT in the movie.. hahahha.
after the movie, went to park lane for 豆花 den after that went home....

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have been feeling so tired these days.. but dono why, my dear classmates can really make me so awake with all their nonsense.. moments with j2 is really happy.. i dono y, maybe cos all of us nonsense together - bullying kuang hui, creating anti XX clans, insulting each other etc.
i'll post the photos when i get them.. Take care ppl!

Masked.

today.. did my pod project (half), den went to work.. after work.. met lewis.. actually planned to go back together.. in the end, we saw brian, ended up eating with him.. den after brian left, me and lewis walked from school to bedok reservoir there the sheng shiong.. and we bought a tub of.........

low fat yoghurt!!!!!
lewis loves yoghurt too.. haha... and we ate..... ALL. x)

then, we went home..

wanted to thank all those darlings who have been by my side these days to listen to my shit and all.. thank u so much.. LOVE YOU !

all those words u've said, they mean sth to me. even if its out of anger, or to protect anyone, u've proved alot to me.

when u need sth, u'd call me, after tt, ud shuff ur ass at my face.

i cant go on like tt.

Crazy.

Tell me what’s wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
Won’t stop till they’ve reached their dreams

Diet pills, surgery
Photo shop pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn’t make sense to me
Is everybody going crazy

Is anybody gonna save me
Can anybody tell me what’s going on
Tell me what’s going on
If you open your eyes
You’ll see that something is wrong

I guess things aren’t how they used to be
There’s no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it’s World War 3
No one cares, no one’s there
I guess we’re all just too damn busy
And money’s our first priority
It doesn’t make sense to me

who's the one that i can tell all my shit to ?
i feel like shit. nonsense. life-less.

MUGGING FOR EXAM

Apologies and Happy 20th Birthday to Danny!!!

danny, sorry man.. had stuff to do today.. and is not i dowan reply u.. is i don't noe how to say.. sorry...

today, school was quite boring.. after school, i brought merilyn, ah ming, eunice and yvonne to Bugis Sakae Sushi to do their POD project.. their topic was japanese cuisine and i worked at that outlet b4, so brought them there so easier to ask the staff for favours.. andy, lewis, wendy and joelle came along.. things for their project turned out quite well i guess? they were so stressed when plating.. poor thing...

anyways after going there, and seeing all the staffs - mei lan, ah yen, karen and some other aunties and uncles... suddenly felt like going back there to work.. miss them so so soooo much...

once again, sorry danny!!! we go out after my exams ok ? take care and enjoy ur day !!!

and also, sorry mun mun =( i've been such an asshole recently.. feel so guilty... =(

A Better Day.

morning, went to school super early, to practise for jap role play test... the role play turned out quite well, managed to keep the class entertained.. then we had lessons as usual.. after all the sian-ed lessons, me, andy, milly and brian went to take bus together.. on bus 8, brian started talking about sumo house and he said he felt like eating it.. then andy didnt let him alight, but we merely wanted him to alight at ethan's stop with us, then let him go home.. but as we were alighting, brian said : " nvm.. 25 come first den i go with u all to amk. if 15 come first, i go home " haha, in the end, 25 realli came first, and he came with us... HAHA.

look at brian's SIAN face..

while the others laugh at him x) cek arh... tsk tsk tsk..

we went to eat at sumo house then played arcade.. after playing arcade, my mood tends to improve de.. haha..

after tt, brian and milly accompanied me and andy to the hair salon for a haircut.. my head, as well as my heart feels lighter now =)

i hope i can forget/not think about tt thing le.. cos its kinda affecting my mood and treatment to ppl.. su, JIA YOU!!!!!

and, i have been having toothache cos of my wisdom tooth.. its bloody painful i swear.. some ppl (i wont say names) even laugh at me on their blog cos of my toothache.. cek arh right..

Mistakes ? Regrets ? Trust ? Fear ? Insecurities ?

today wasn't a good day.. last night, i asked a fren a question that i totally regretted asking about.. and it made me feel like crap for about a day.. the incident happened months ago, but i suddenly thought of it and was curious, so i opened my damn mouth..
the answer realli stun the fuck out of me.. never could i imagine those words... from..
but like what ppl hve been telling me.. those words came out from them probably due to my open-ness, rash-ness and naive-ness..
however i still feel sorry for dan. i shouldn't hv involved u then.
after much thought, i kinda 想通le.. like what all my darlings told me,the incident happened months ago, so i shdn't bother about it anymore..moreover, things are different now! right?
though i still cant get it out of my mind, cos its quite a heavy hit, i will get it out asap..

also, i've been feeling so tired and irritated by things and ppl around me.. its always like this : when one problem comes, many will follow. and it seriously makes me feel so uptight and bound.

i guess i just need more sleep and less thinking to get myself back on track..

"When one door closes another opens. But often we look so long so regretfully upon the closed door that we fail to see the one that has opened for us. "

someone asked me to see this quote some time ago.. and i suddenly thought about it.. i wanna encourage my dear friends/readers to NOT live in the shadows of our mistakes/regrets whatsoever, cos opportunities for everything are always there..(regardless of whatever situation we are in) like milly always says, be sad but not for too long! Also, happiness does not depend on outward things, it depends on the way we see things! always look on the bright side, my friends!

when i woke up today, i happened to see my baby hamsters slleping like tt, so i snapped a photo.. he looks so cute..

this is lewis's dog, Bibi. he is one horny dog, and he was irritating everyone, so lewis's mum put him in the pail, in which he couldnt get out from.. but after some time.. he managed to escape..

Bibi was eating mandarin oranges.. damn cute.. wei hao, jun jie and james joined a little later... then we watched tv till abt 1 then went home...

saturday - 31 Jan

went to school in the morning for Japanese Role Play rehearsal.. practised till afternoon, den went to meet lewis and made our way to andy's house, with eunice, wendy and jun jie too... as usual, ended up playing mahjong and cards.. then we went to a nearby coffee shop to have zi-char for dinner which didnt taste very good cos of the 铁板豆腐.. at first it was tasteless, den after it got replaced, it tasted like we were eating salt (not so 夸张 la, but realli salty) then we returned to his house for more gambling and TV too.. left his home around like 3 i think... on my way home, nelson suddenly called me and asked me to pass him some money cos he was losing money.. tsk tsk tsk.. boys boys boys... anyways, i went home to get some to pass to him, den went home to SLEEP.. was having a headache... sorry.. noo phootos

sunday - 1 Feb

went out with mun mun today !! =) went to study, but didnt end up studying much.. hahhaa.. aftr that went to parkway parade to eat and shop.. wanted to bring her to "The Coffee Showcase" but sadly, when we got there, it had closed down already.. it was so saddening.. we ended up eating MOS burger and realised tt almost all the staff were china ppl.. waaa sian-sation.. anyways, we walked around and all till like 9 plus? then headed home, cos her school START AT 9 the nexet day... HAHA!!!

anyways, im going to school alrdy.. will update when im free =)