i have always been burying all the nonsense deep deep down at the bottom of my heart.
it made me feel better, made me forgive, forget and look forward.
i have no fucking guts to open up and cry out.
tonight, i realized digging out crap that you have buried, would hurt this much.
looking back, i realized what i have buried, will somehow come back up again,
and throw me down like an endless freefall.
i hope, when i wake up, i will be in a new place.
away from all the crap i have faced, am facing and will be facing.
love, friendship, words, the past, could hurt this much.