Tired. pissed. irritated. 

Went out for a drink by myself last night. it's been really some time since i did that. 

I didn't get myself really drunk though, just a little tipsy, good enough to walk myself back home. putting on that mask again. feeling so W-R-E-C-K-E-D. Took a walk to Kallang River. It was a weekday, so it was kinda deserted. I sat down and calm-ed my mind down and thought of everything around me. Relax-ed. Sometimes, it's really better to alone. 

And also. I was thinking of this phrase : 没有期望 就不会失望。For ppl with sucky chinese like me, it means, without hope, there wouldn't be disappointment. I  thought about it in english, then used my phone dictionary to translate it. 

I've been feeling so disappointed in myself. The way i do things, sometimes not thinking about other's feelings, and the way i face up to stuff. Be it problems, reality or whatever.

Been having so many emo posts recently. So sorry. 

Anyways,